Well, been really depressed recently. A series of events seem to just "BANG!", and all fall upon me.
Well, first there was POP. To put it simply, it's just Past Out Parade, where our seniors all hand over our duties to their junior, also the Sec 3 Batch and pass out. Sigh, its just so fast. A year has flown past since last year's POP and well, I can't help but say I really miss this batch of seniors.
I have grown so much closer to them because of Campcraft Competition and those afternoons which I spend at SALT centre. Its just so hard to let go of all of them all of a sudden. It just feels as though a huge part of me was removed. I no longer felt whole, if I put it in a harsh way. Time simply passes so quickly when you are enjoying yourself.
Then there's still that screwed up relationship problems. Sigh, its just all mixing into one kind of feeling, confusion. I still can't decide, though I beginning to realise. She said she was mugging recently, want to wish her good luck! Hope we can meet up soon, RAWR!
Anyway, speaking of mugging, comes my another reason for depression. All the pressure for getting good grades is building up. The desire to excel is just killing me =( Now there's this new requirement of A1 for English, and I know I'm screwed. Its just an impossible task.
Now the worst thing is that there's no one to turn to. I can't tell anyone my problems and ask them for help. I've been seeking for someone whom I can turn to whenever I hit problems, though it seems impossible. All I've learnt so far is that everything that I love gets taken away eventually, so its better to not love at all...
Well, need to sleep now and mug again tomorrow. Byes...