Really tired already. I slept at 11 or 12 every day. Feeling sick now. Probably a fever. But there's still school tomorrow. BAD enough huh.

Yet, there's still this test on Thursday. Math is the one that spells trouble. I have my LCP CAPE on Friday too. Doomed. Anyway, CAPE stands for Cadet Assessment Promotion Exercise. Have to prepare my uniform, polish my boots, memorize NPCC knowledge, prepare drills and also WOC, which means Word Of Command. I still have council duties on Thursday. Hais

Sec 2 is like so busy. I use to have time to blog and stuff. But now? Nah. Moreover, I still have to start on my LA blog again. Something which is plainly retarded yet an easy ACE opportunity. Well, I guess that once my Campcraft Competition Training is over, I'll be a lot slacker. Hopefully then I can get the ample rest I need.

Anyway, just realised how much conflict there can be between friends. This moment you are the best of friends, and the next, you start insulting each other and the biased points shoot out with those that you are restraining when you interact with friends. Even between my own friends, I find it hard to find a friend who is willing to devote as much as I do into the friendship. It hurts when they don't, leaving me wondering whether it was worth the time and effort and all in maintaining this friendship. Some friends just come and go like the wind, but to find one that sticks up to you like honey, its like asking for the impossible.

Yet, thinking of the one person whom I would devote entirely to, would just leave me shattered. Its been so long, and contact was never possible. It was never me, and would never be. Telling myself to forget would just kill me, so leaving things in mid air, seemed to be perfect. I never knew how to handle relationships. I never would want to anyway. Seeing how things turn out all the time, I feel desperate for the love I rarely had.

Sometimes on my way home, I feel tears within me. I cant let it out. I get hurt each time the memory comes and goes. I want to take a break. Hopefully, it would be the coming New Year.

Loves and wishes...

Anyway, forget about that. Want to write about SOO, since nothing else to write about.

So, SOO, otherwise known as Secondary One Orientation. Its held like from 4th to 6th January. Yes, that means no school for all Hwa Chongnians. Cheer dumbos.

So yep, today was tiring. My throat hurts too anyway. Cheered like a crazy and lunatic person today. Ate 4 strepsils. My senior took 1 too.

However, the sec 1s just refuse to cheer with their hearts. They are like epic unethu people. Make them cheer like killing them. Told them do hand signs and raise it above their heads. They left it on all possible parts of the body but above their head. Dun understand their problem

There was still the minority who had serious attitude problem. Argued and talk back whenever we ask them to so something.

I think something fun was the water bomb mass games. It was very hectic. Sort of like the free for all bombing. I got hit like, once. Some idiot sec 1 threw it at me after I told him not to bomb buddies. Retarded sia. Then he went off laughing like a mentally challenged bastard.

Well, tomorrow is the second day of SOO. My voice is already half gone. Don't know if I can last to the last day. I better...

Sian to talk anymore. Bye